It has been a very long time since I didn’t post any rent online. It is not that I have lost interest in the Net or even making the new layout for my site… I just don’t know where to start, no matter it is for Web design, my life, my job… Well, pretty much everything. I have lost the will do to anything and I lack the motivation to push myself to do something. This is truer than ever since I lost my friend last Friday. He was always there for me – when I came home from work, when I was in need of comfort, when I felt alone, or when I wanted just to go for a walk – he was pretty much present in my life and an important pillar to for me. “Who is this person”, you might ask. Well, he was not a person, he was my dog, Café.
About 1 month and half ago, he was diagnosed with cancer. I don’t know for most people, but it was a pretty hard blow for me to take, since they [the vet] couldn’t operate for this type of cancer. For me, despite what people might say or think, he was as important as anyone in my family and I find myself having a really hard time getting use to the idea that he’s no longer alive. He was at my side since 11 years now and even if I had the time to prepare myself, the reality is that I was far from being ready for this.
I remember the day that I choose him. My parent told me that we were going to pick up a computer deck for my room for my 16th birthday. It was far from being a desk when I saw all the cute puppies. That’s when I saw him, this little blond furry ball, not older than 3 weeks. It was then that our world came together, as I took him in my arms without any hesitation. I don’t know what I would have done if I didn’t have him in my life. He was always cheerful, full of energy. He gave me joy, hope, hapiness. He was even there to cheer me up when I was sad, licking away my tears.
Furthermore, there wasn’t a time that he didn’t wanted to go for a walk, or to play with either his ball or his cord, or that he didn’t run wild when I came back home. He had some much spunk in him… Most of the time, he wouldn’t let go his cord, even after dragging him around. Once, I was even able to lift him in the midair with only the cord in my hand.
I have the perfect example that I can relate to when I think of the relation between me and my fellow canine. I am a fanatic of RPGs on video game consoles and as my RPG brethren out there will surely say the same thing as I; the SNES (Super Nintendo Entertainment System) was home to the best of game in the genre. So, it was only normal that when Square release their new Action RPG, [i]Secret of Evermore[/i], that I would be playing it. The prologue of this game starts when a young boy and his canine acolyte – which I named after my dog – accidentally crossed over to a virtual world when they visited an old abandoned science lab. They are then catapulted in four different worlds and as they try to find a way back to their own world, the must count on each other to work their way throught countless traps, challenges, and bosses. Based upon the gameplay of Secret of Mana, you only control the boy. The dog follows you and helps you in your quest, by "transforming", or more like "evolving" within the different environments in the game. I was proud to have a game that I could have a fantasy quest with my dog… Well, a representation of him ;) !
What a beautiful time it was… A young boy and his dog sharing wonderful adventures together. Café, I will deeply miss you… I will miss your nails on the floor when you moved around the house, announcing your arrival… I will miss you coming in the night to sleep with me, underneath my blankets… I will miss your cute fuzzy face… I had to push myself to write this, as I'm still hoping to see or to even hear you. I will never forget you and I will live my life to its fullest, with you guiding my heart and my soul.
Domo arigatou, for everything. I love you so much... I always have and I always will.
Friday, October 5, 2007
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